HERstory

Yeah I know it’s been a while since I’ve blogged over here. Sorry. There has been plenty of things that I can talk about, but I haven’t been so sure how I can put all of these words together.

So today all I’ve been hearing are things that have been making me insanely jealous. Like how the guy I’ve liked for the past 6 months…. has been telling me about how he talks to certain girls. & how he talked to one of our friends. I don’t know but it just seems like he likes her…. & it hurts because she just lets it happen…. Yesterday something happened to her and she was/is all hurt about it. I mean, I want her to get over it but I mean, by taking what I care/love the most? Yes I admit, I have done this to her…. three times I believe? But that was then and I stopped. I don’t like feeling replaced or hurt…. No one does. But I think, if anyone ever took him away from me…. I don’t think I will ever be the same again. It just hurts too much…. If only he knew how much I am still in like with him…. How often I think about him when I’m in classes. I mean when I blog about one of my friends from Michigan it hurts because through my other Tumblr it only sounds like I’m so in love with him….. But in reality…. I am in like with the one that has been standing right in front of me this entire time….. If only this person understood that…. If only I were given the chance…. If only….